Monday, June 15, 2015

Looking to Him: it's that Simple

Lately God have been talking and trying to working out some questions I have. With some personal struggles and some questions about God in the midst of disaster. 

What do you do when sickness strikes you or a loved one? 

How do you still cling to a loving God when there is so much devastation around you? 

When your heart is aching, where is God? 

When you pray for a healing and it doesn't happen, what happened? 

As I have grappled with these questions, one answer keeps coming back. "I never said you would be spared trouble, I said that I would be with you in the midst of it." If I push Him away I push away the only hope and help I have. He strengthens my soul and refreshes my spirit. If I stop believing in His plan, I stop believing in the most real and true plan in universe. 

So even in the midst of my questions and heartache, I chose to trust God. 

 I chose to look to Him and say You are my God and You have control even now. I will chose to look to You and keep holding onto You. Even as I know You are holding onto me. No matter what happens I know from the past You has never failed me and You won't fail me now. 

So lead me through this time in You strength. Let me find you everywhere I look. Let me be Your hands voice to the hurting. Let my heart become more devoted to you in the midst of this. May I encourage others to follow You in the midst of their own questions. Amen. 

I pray that wherever you are in your own journey that you would look to God and trust Him. It's never easy. But it's always worth it. Keep looking to Him with stubborn tenacity. Knowing that He is holding onto you even tighter. 

Saturday, February 28, 2015

When God Rocks Your World

 He does it when you least expect it. God comes in and rocks your world. He changes your perspective and blesses you so much. 

For the last part of 2014 I felt like I was on auto pilot with my faith. I would go through the motions and tried to learn my lessons, but I wasn't pursuing God. I was just getting by. 

Then New Years Day it happened. I was left a message to call Burns Family Studios. They asked me to come up to Michigan to work for them for three weeks. I was floored. I had put in an application to work from home. I never thought that I would be chosen to go. 

Yet there I stood in the Austin airport a week and half later waiting for my flight to take off. It really hit me, I'm going to Michigan. 

That night was a different story. Because of a matinence issue, my flight was delayed and I missed my connection. I was stuck in the airport waiting on standby for the next flight to Detroit. As the hours dragged on and the flight kept getting delayed, I realized that my chances of getting out that night were slim. Since it was the airlines fault they had given me a hotel voucher and a ticket for a flight the next day. I was so tired and feeling so alone. I decided to get some sleep and catch the flight in the morning. 

At the hotel I sat down on the bed and cried. Lord, I feel so alone. I'm in a strange city and this isn't where I wanted to be. Please help me. Through the tears I heard Gods reply. I am here. I am with you. I will watch over you and protect you. Deep in my soul I felt a peace that had been lacking. God wrapped His arms around me and showed me love and grace for all of my whining and complaining. I sent a final message to my family letting them know I was okay and resting. Not only did they give me encouragement, but several friends were praying for me and encouraging me. I went to bed feeling better. 

The next day I was about to catch my flight and arrived in Michigan without incident. 

The following weeks were a wonderful and challenging adventure. I found not only a group of amazing women waiting for me, but friendship. We bonded in a special and unique way. Each of these girls was a treasure and a delight to work with. 

Work started as soon as I got there. We all spent long days making calls, sending emails, and promoting Beyond The Mask. It was very rewarding. 

What God did on my downtime was nothing short of a complete turnaround. Through conversations and sometimes debate, God showed me that I was hiding my faith because I was afraid of legalism and fear of people. It totally broke me. I saw how I had become afraid to speak. I repented. God forgave me and showed me great love. 

In the days that followed God and I shared many sweet moments of fellowship together. Enjoying the trip, playing in the snow, and reading Romans. He reignited a passion and love for Him that I had been missing. He changed me. 

My faith was restored and my eyes were open to see what God could do through me. It was a huge turnaround. 

In the meantime, we as a group were taking a lot of little adventures. Going to Canada, enjoying the snow (a big event for a Texas girl), ice skating, and just being together. 

God provided so many wonderful opportunities while I was there. I didn't want it to end. But as with everything in this life, it came to an end. 

Now that I'm home and looking back on the whole fun wonderful crazy fun adventure, I see how much God used it to grow me. 

I now share Him and His message of love and grace more freely. I love more. I enjoy the warmth and green of Texas more. Life is better, richer, and deeper.

That's how God rocked my world. He gave me a blessing so big that I couldn't contain it. I had to let it spill over into others. And may His love and grace continue to spill through me now and forever more. 

Monday, July 28, 2014

Simple Update

Hi everyone.

It's good to be back. For a moment at least.

To be honest, I've missed blogging. I've missed connecting with you all online and sharing my life with you.

Lately I've been volunteering, sewing for the hospital, reading more simpleness books, enjoying family, helping making some films, and living life.

Things have been such a mix this year. I've had some really amazing things happen. Continuing to volunteer, family time, filming, etc. I've also had some hard thing come into my life. My Dad was diagnosed with a Cognitive illness, I've been struggling with discontentment, and trying to decide where God wants me.

It's been a year full of challenge and blessing. And through it all God has been there, loving me, helping me, showing me the way to go. Even though I've been confused, I've never been alone. Even though life has been difficult at times, I've always had the strength to get through. Even though I've cried out in pain and hurt and frustration, I've always found loving arms waiting to hold me.

I don't have it all together, but I'm becoming okay with that. The great thing is I know the one who does have it all together. And He doesn't need any competition.

So today, my goals are to enjoy the life I have and lean a little closer to the one who gave it to me.

God bless you, Rose

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Simple Close ... For now anyway

Dear friends,
     I had all these great plans. I was going to grow this little blog and have it stay around for a few years.
     But lately I have been feeling God's call to live out my faith more than write about it. It's time to focus on other writing. It's time to enjoy life and not just write about it. It's time to practice things without the distraction of having to write about them.
     So for now, I'm not going to be writing on this blog. I might pick it up again sometime, but at least for now I'll be living out my simple life instead of blogging about it.
    So farewell for now and I pray that your life is enriched and strengthen by God, Rose

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

In 100 Simple Words #8

The years past. Funny how things that seem so important to us at one time, become less important.
Kelsey smiled as she thought about that “restoration coffee” as she and Jenny had dubbed it. They had mended the friendship.
Although she never touched that story again, Kelsey had written other things. Her life was now full.
She looked out the window of her small apartment. The guests should be arriving soon. Today they were celebrating the completion of a play.

Kelsey smiled to herself. It had been a wonderful success. God had been with her, but then He always had. 

Saturday, June 22, 2013

In 100 Simple Words #7

“Can you ever forgive me, Kelsey?”
The words fell on Kelsey’s heart like cool water.
“I should have defended you. Especially after what Megan did. I was so confused and I let that confusion hurt you. Seeing you at the party last night made realize that my silence was hurting you. I’m so sorry.”
Kelsey took in a deep breath. It was as if God was whispering, “I am here. I am with you. I have not abandoned you.”
The proof of this sat right in front of her, drinking a vanilla cappuccino.

Tears fell, and she nodded her head. 

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

In 100 Simple Words #6

This is nuts!
Kelsey drummed her fingers on the table waiting for Jenny to show up.
It’s only 3:30 and I’m waiting here at the coffee shop for a “friend” who didn’t stick up for me. What could she possibly want to say to me?
But Jenny had sounded so sincere that Kelsey couldn’t refuse. Even at 3:30 in the morning.
The timid voice startled Kelsey. She jerked up and saw the familiar face standing before her.
A brief silence ensued.
“I bet you didn’t want to see me again.”

Kelsey just stood there. What should she say?